First blogg!

As I sit here on the brink of my first blog session, I am being constantly reminded of what I have not achieved in my life so far. The thought of writing a blog lays an irrational thought that this will one day gain me critical acclaim when I am famous or well liked. I get the impression that this is the story of my road to stardom and success although I see know way of gaining either. My friend, who in my eyes is a talented writer, inspired me to be someone who uses language effectively but I fear that I will short live his expectations, as I have an underlying un-confidence about my ability. However, putting “pen to paper” on this pleasant 21st century Toshiba allows me to get my thoughts down before I forget what I was thinking. Usually I would be thinking over and over, dwelling on negative thoughts but I know feel that I am making a positive contribution to myself and even society. If it keeps me from claiming job seekers allowance then that is one good result of writing a blog- one more than I could originally think of. At this moment in time I am currently waiting on two life changing opportunities. My fear is that I will be rejected yet again from them both. If getting rejected from 5 universities wasn’t hard enough to deal with I know have to wait for yet another universities verdict whether or not they will take me. Doing marginally ok in my A-levels seems to have hindered my potential, whilst other less suited candidates walk into the courses that they have no right in going in for. As well as this, I now have to get a visa for a project that I may well not get offered. I’m basically signing away the next month of my life away as I wait for a phone call that may never come. As I constantly check my emails for “good news” I can’t help but think the worst. To me, it’s apparent that it’s my lack of hobbies and skills that is stopping me getting a placement on Camp America. But how is that fair, I’m offering to volunteer for 12 weeks in another country, like I already have, just for some life experience (which my friends find laughable) but they seem not to want me. In all of this, I cannot help but notice a pattern. For young people in this day and age it seems near on impossible to get anywhere in life. Everybody I speak to seems to be in this predicament, like myself. I know many people who have degrees and are among some of the smartest people I know, yet they struggle to find jobs or even an opportunity. There is undoubtedly a niche in the market for a young person’s opportunity scheme, aside from Sir Alan Sugar’s junior apprentice!! Although my writing is lacking an upbeat tempo, I am still keeping positive and refuse to be an epic fail. Recently remembering that I got rejected for working at McDonalds, no less than 5 times does not help, but my belief of getting somewhere in this world stays strong. I think this will do for my first blog, as I am running out of words that I understand. I have not a foggiest idea on how to end a blog, so I shall leave you with a word of the week- Nostalgia. Hence the name of this blog.